At this point my mate can do better than me i don’t care i want to rest.
i can barely even process life in my head, or bring myself to understand certain thing, like how my dad see me as a threat to my siblings because I choose to follow christ, or me embracing my calling that i desire not, because GOD want to use that. i can never understand how my goal and plans for this year completely changed after using December to plan my life…. all this don’t make sense, nothing make sense to me right now.
it is like one moment I am looking at this calm beach in that moment all my worries is gone, to another moment where something is missing is a room and I was the last person to see that thing. the guilt, no, nobody is accusing me, but I feel responsible for it.
life is tough enough, just when I make up my mind to face the world, the world, just in that moment is facing me. do you think I live my life thinking about being successful so I can come to reunion that I don’t even think about? leave that one first let me first leave my parent house, do you know how much is apple now? to live a healthy life is expensive! this days ehn even self care is beginning to look like luxury.
if I see an old time friend I will be a demon to be paying attention to what phone you use, or what you got going on, consciously.
if all you can do is eat, and go to church I celebrate you, life is hard enough. some of us are struggling emotionally, mentally and financially. but kudos to instagram where everyone is living a professional life. what do we do? after all we can not look like what we are going through.
there is a lot going on…
give yourself grace…
keep people that understand you Around you….
if what you need is rest, rest let them go ahead of you….
who and what is more important than you?
if you like try and try it will still not work, so relax, embrace the season…
when your time come GOD will be glorified even in your little strength…
remember it is by Grace…
stay close to GOD …
so when it is go time you know…
he that call you forth will sustain you…
what doesn’t make sense to you right now, what are you finding hard too understand?